zz...lost her

hai...everything came n go in a gust of wind

2007-09-15T09:49:00.001-07:00

hmm...tink bout it it had been 7months n 6days ler...so sad...everything really like wind xia...come n go so shortly...it had been quite long i can feel...alot of happy memories n alot unhappy ones...y everything has to b liddat...when u r not doin e right ting i m doin...when u treat mi good i wan turn back...u changed...hai...u had tis all planned i guess...i keep tellin myself not to reply u but i still cannot...dunno y...although i noe tis is love but it is like inresistable...hai...dunno how i should end tis...u told mi u nv talk to guys n all e comments prove ur lies...hai...how u wan mi to believe everything u say?nvm...u r gone n i m oso gone...we r destinated to b not together le ba...hmm...if u wan our strings to b tied up n buried its alright...i can pass u mine we dig together lor...buaii my cupid angel=(

hai...so long

2007-09-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

so long nv update my blog le wor...kao...tink like dusty le xia...sayang bloggie=D
hai...so long e relationship now came 2 an end...goin 7 months n we jux ended...it went off jux like in a few sec...hmm...true to say quite pain...regret?no i dun tink so...but will miss e good times ba...hai...all e so so happy times...would cry at night alone at places wit ur memories...tink onli u noe esp whr lar...but it has to go one day...its so fragile...so yup...rather now then later...more pain...today e alfred at my house there kao eh...i walk past then he go pull my leg...i dun care he still kp...so i turn round gave him a punch on face...his eyes bled...y i so violent xia?mayb i'm jux at a desperate end ba....still i choose not to go back...cause so pain xia...hai...comments plz...i nid advices...thx

hmm...

2007-06-14T08:50:00.000-07:00

hmmm...long long....very long=(

2007-06-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

hmm...really very very long nv update ler...haha...passed our 4 months...hmm...although quite alot quarrels but haihao...very very bored n sad tis few days...my family givin mi alot probs!!!i'm goin crazy ler!!!hai...hope i got my last grab n hope ba...hmm...or i may collapse soon...or mayb vanish ba...alot tings happened nowadays...i'm collapsin ler...i hate somethings which she can nv change de...hai...i'm utterly sad...2night i shall open my wine n drink to my heart's content...some hints she may nv get de...i'm so sad...utterly disappointed...i'm like losin everything i got...hmm...jux end my life...i wan go other quiet place...sian...buaii...dun save mi plz!!!=(

2007-05-13T01:07:00.000-07:00

hmm...quite long again nv update my blog...haha...hmm...write all tis on mother's day xia...lame...this few days had been okie ba...but more n more sian cause dear is neglecting mi ler at tis point of time...ended tut late by an hr...it had been so toturin for mi jux now...dear nv reply mi...hai...i was wonderin wat she was doin...bu guan wo ler...then now at tis time when i post oso haven reply...mayb slp again ler...hai...i'm so sad...tink i'll jux go out for a walk ba...shu jian ya li...gals r wierd...at sometime they tell u they really luv u alot alot...then another day may haf lesser love...guys r jux normal ba...but temper wise not good...i'm in such a lousy mood now...hmm...guess i'll go out for a walk ba...walk far far...hmm...hope dear would do something bout tis...reply mi faster n loads...kk buaii...i'll still luv u...woaini...muackx...

2007-05-06T07:00:00.001-07:00

hmm...tis few days we went thru alot more...hai...we both knew onli by stayin along with each other then we will b happy ba...haha...wit someone u love most is the most happiest thing on earth...dar is so happy nowadays...dear treat dar so good...dar is like a injured prince tis few days...keep sick...but dear treat dar very good...dar very happy...no regrets even if now die...hehe...muackx...wat i unhappy about was solved yest ler...so happy...yea!!!we like very jialat yest...now okie ler...dear dun ignore dear on phone n show dar e last bit of ur luv dar would not expect anymore ler...hehe...u r e best princess of dar...so lov so lov u!!!muackx!!!woaini!!!forever!!!1314!!!yong yuan!!!=D promise 2 dear forever...hold u tight...lock ur heart up=D

2007-05-06T07:00:00.000-07:00

hmm...

2007-05-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

wa...today exams haihao haihao...hai...chem cannot finish...hai...i love my dear so much...tink today is cause i miss dear so much...abit headache+giddy...plus i got stomache since mornin...argh...but reach home...ARRRRRR...so relax=D
hmm...missin dear so much...even now!!!playin game wit dear n bloggin is so hard...but nvm...no matter how hard dar will pei dear...hmm...dar so happy today...slp till dunno how to wake up xia...dear slpt on dar...e feelin so good!!!yea!!!i so happy so happy...sry dear today abit later then go home...sob...nvm lar dear...wun again de...cause pei xiaodi oso ma...hope tomorrow we go somewhr very very fun xia...hehe...muackx...so luv dear!!!09*02*07

sad sad=(

2007-04-30T20:38:00.000-07:00

hmm...today i like very stressed xia...tink its cause i nv slp well ba...wan wake up early to wake dear dear up...muahaha...then cannot go back slp...sob...so luv dear...i wan dear pei mi!!!sob...i wan i wan...so bored...mayb jux can hope at night pei dear go night market ba...haha...so many things happened tis few days...exams now...so stress...i may look normal...but internally very very stress...hope dear do something bout it ba...hmm...tis few days i like very busy wit litao prob...not fightin lar!!!hmm...but like songzhong n xiaobai's daughter 1 year birthday!!!i found my ring!!!e one tat is connected wit dear de...same same de...hmm...but on e day i found it...dear broke wit mi...sob...e most jekark tink is she still hold my hand n hug mi...ask mi play arcade wit her...haii...i ask xiaodi play wit her then i went to a corner in e arcade 2 shed tears...imagine mi witout u...wa tat song very xiong xia...so painful...went to xiaobai house like sad sad de...so miss dear...then luckily we patched...hai...dear dun leave dar le lar...hai...i so sad everytime...my heart is fragile...so weak...muackx...but one ting still not happy about...dear spend ur birthday wit other guys...hai...still tink not fair to ur dar mi lo...its not a good excuse u gave mi tat time...but nvm lar...over ler...i'll jux keep tat in my mind ba...sad sad...went xinyi sunnu de bbq...xiaodi wa kao...vomit in e bus...gross xia...then we go down e lower deck to sit...hehe...so love dear...i missed dear whole night...went tur e datou!!!got e pink de...gave dear...hehe...dear tink very happy...muackx...i was so giddy tat night...keep feel like faintin...my body is still very very weak...sob...dear whr u?takiare of dar plz=D

argh...

2007-04-21T22:01:00.000-07:00

i haf a boilin point...it's reachin max soon...a person is tickling mi up to it!!!bloody fark...a guy called dunno wat flavian 1...argh!!!farkin nerd...hes 2 innocent to the other world...let mi make HIM face up to reality...i'm a paikia!!!i'll get him...WAN SHUI WAN SHUI CHIONG AR CHIONG!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI TIONG LI TIONG!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI HOU AR HOU!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI LI LAP HOU!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI HAI AR HAI!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI LI YI HAI!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI SHAN AR SHAN!!!WAN SHUI WAN SHUI LI YI SHAN!!!=D

ya...i love u

2007-04-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

hmm...today is the lousiest day of my life...hmm...yesterday night i sort of quarrel wit my dear...she not happy cause i nv let her pluck my moustach...ya...my fault sry dear!!!haha...hmm...then mornin my dm psyco mi 2 not haf any relationships durin tis time...hmm..i thought over ler...i wan u dear...no more hesitation!!!hmm...so sad...dear keep tink i not confirm of my thoughts...then i ask till i dulan...nv once i was so angry b4 de...i asked for a break!!!WTF!!!i broke my promise...but really i couldn't endure the anger within mi...aft that i got a real bad cough...dear so nice brought mi stepsils...then we patched...yea...haha...hmm...aft that i send dear home...then i dun wan dear go out ler...so i msged dear's mum to keep her home cause she tired...but omg i messed it up...they quarreled...wth...sian...MY BLOODY STUPID HEAD!!!y do tis...hmm...sort of abit wierd wif dear...but i will get back that ittle love lost!!!argh...hmm...today songka of li lap hou...so many ppl there...all our allies...wow...woaini dear...love mi as much as u could plz!!!muackx muackx...noe u slpin like a pig now...muahaha...=D

hmm...today quite okie...

2007-04-19T07:51:00.000-07:00

today was quite a happy day ba...whole day except now at night...dunno y dear suddenly like dun luv mi...hai...mayb i did wrong...sob...hmm...i'm a lousy stead...dar really love u alot alot!!!argh...mayb jux still can't grab all ur luv ba...hai...i'm a failure...2ml will decide if i would continue schling...u may affect my decision...dunno...i'm confused...mornin in sch quite fun...everyone was so happy today lo...hmm...then afternoon i rush go hougang find that yongliang...our long ago prob...actually i dun wan fightin de..but its too much tat time ba...his a nice guy...but y must do all tis?hmm...i jio him 1v1...he keep dun wan but in the end he haf 2 accept the 'battle' ba...cause another option is all my friends gang him...muahaha...hmm...hai hao ba...tink he nv touch mi much...abit onli...my hand whack till pain...sob...dear so lovin to dar today...but dunno y at night like tat...hmm...yongliang is a nice guy ba in nature...but his tat mouth wa...bui ta han...he choose play 3 mins...i 1 min jiu end it ler...hmm...nv so jekark...=D

ARGH...blog so many days cannot go in...

2007-04-14T21:21:00.000-07:00

hmm...tis few days everyday aft sendin my dear home i feel so lonely...ARGH!!!haha...miss my dear always!!!hmm...blog abit spoilt...my com cannot get in...so sian...haha...hmm...yest went work at chaichee...not bad ba...earn abit n had fun...hai...yesterday sold 17 onli...cannot sell all 20 finish...mayb we not tat good in sellin le ba...haha...but nvm...still earn...yea!!!free cig yesterday xia...ppl so kind gif us money...was so worried bout dear...so late yest still dun go home...hmm...then aft tat dear reached home safe then dar felt btter ler...muahaha...aft the sellin...mi n shawn...both of us...we were really very very tired xia...hmm...bo bian so we took a cab...then reach le jiu run...haha...sibei bastard...but no choice...wat is done is done...muahaha...i nid mian bi shi guo tis few days ler..haha...muackx...i misss my DEAR!!!ARGH!!!haha...happy two months++ =D

i'm gettin so hot...

2007-04-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

wa...yest was our second month together ler...haha...hmm...dear startin so happy de wor...we eat n eat...then dear suddenly emo liao...hmm...so many things make mi sad oso...then keep listen fang shen...i dun let dear hear is cause of those reasons i tell u...it will affect the relationship de ba...i'm so fortunate 2 haf dear as my stead...but dear y always leave dar?hai...i'm not a good guy lar...n if i m...u really deserve mi lo...i m fuel n u r e lighter container...mi without u jiu die liao...haha...words from my heart...u really hurt mi yest...broke up wit mi at night...my heart shattered!!!dear plz dun leave dar again!!!n u promise dar ler...not to CUT/SLASH/DRAW ur hand wit e penknife or watever sharp objects!!!haha...i'll treasure u...i'll not let dear suffer alone...my promise to u will not b broken...its always ur prob wor...tink b4 everyting lar dear...haha...nvm...but i like tis way...dear can make dar cry...shows tat i really treasure u ba...muackx...lets continue our wonderful love story=D
09*02*07

SO SO HAPPY 2DAY!!!

2007-04-08T07:56:00.000-07:00

hmm...2day very happy...hmm...pei dear twice wor=D
today morning wenttomb sweepin...offerings i burn so happily for my ancestors...hmm...witout my dad ba thats y i tink...hehe...then went HONG XING eat...wa...the dim sum there so so nice lo...i ate till full ler then go shit...shit ler come out eat again till bloated=X
ta bao 4 egg tarts 4 my dear but two were eaten up by my mum n sis...HMPF!!!nvm...dear ate two...i came back bath ler jiu ride bike go find dear ler...dear eat the egg tarts so happily wit slurpee...haha...we pei each other so happy lor...aft tat dear went home then i go meet my friends...at night go home ler eatin dear tell mi se wan play basketball...noein her house there alot pai kia...i dun feel safe let her go alone n i miss dear!!!so went down again find dear...she was touched i guess...yea=D
40 more mins 2 our 2 month together ler...so HAPPY!!!ARGH!!!I WAN MAD LER!!!muackx...love u so so so much...woaini...b MINE!!!=D

WA...nearly lost her :((((((((((

2007-04-06T17:53:00.000-07:00

hmm...wierd wierd de...the day b4 dear sound so carin aft i quarrel wit my mum...then dunno y next mornin change attitude towards mi...tink she in a bad mood then i dunno how to console her ba...then we broke up...she return mi our ring...i'm such a lousy stead=(
hmm...aft that met her below her house to talk tings...didn't went on smoothly...n went to meet shawn n wilson...bastard wilson look at gals really FOC...haha...hmm...aft that then i go meet her again cause she asked mi whether i want to send her back home ma...of course i chiong down...haha...we went eat mac...she force mi eat...sob sob=( but actually is fun ba=D
hmm...we went onto the mrt n proceed towards sembawang...abit like stead in there...still land my hands around her waist...i knew we would patch ba...so at mac i already put the ring back into her wallet...HAHA...dear dun wan to go home dunno y...make mi miss the last mrt...hehe...hmm...no lar...pei dear is wat i wan...haha...we kissed everything jiu noe she wan mi back ler...n there we r back together...our fairytale contines...09/02/07*repromised woaini =D

wa pAIN!!!

2007-04-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

hmm...today spar suddenly...hehe...update my blog twice today...hehe...spar thrice today...hmm...all can counted wun ba...shawn i win...junior fark...jio two days dun wan fight mi...ZZ...AST kia xia...hmm...ah yang nv hit mi much...tink dunno how to xia shou ba...but i managed to kick n punch afew ba...hehe...tall really advantage lo...YEA=DD
hmm...but my leg injured...meantime i relac relac ba...hehe...muackx...my dear very sweet to mi today...both in good mood...HAHA...so luv u!!!woaini!!!yi bei zi together=DD

hmm...not bad

2007-04-04T21:49:00.000-07:00

this few days majiam no sch like tat...keep gif myself holidays...haha...relationship goin on still alright...still tight...jux one prob...dear like to say something i dun like wor...haha...hmm...anything must tell mi...i dunno things myself de...n this few days while holidays keep trainin sparrin...hehe...not really for mi...train once onli...victory...i got advantage ba...tall ma...hehe...junior fight wit shawn...wa kao...majiam a rabbit n a tiger...kao...he like scratchin 4 shawn...zz...wan chup plz learn this first lar!!!AST some more...3821 come...hmm...funny xia...punch ppl till fall...kao...drama ar???hmm...u dun disgrace AST lar hor...they r good in numbers?oh...they nid u oso i think...haha...nvm...go on ba...u will nid them=D
hmm...as for my stead...i will treat her real good...n her that ex ar...gettins on my nerves...careful oso ba=DD

wa...HOT!!!i'm HOT!!!

2007-03-31T20:07:00.000-07:00

hmm...now dunno how long update my blog once onli xia...hai...many things happened...now out of 21tiong ler...so sad...but anyway i oso not really like in there b4...hmm...not active...nvm...now i'm aimin for other btter gangs...265?xiao gang...muahaha...dunno...see fate ba...btw mi n my dear doin on very very well...jux tat fark...the ring we buy...mine got stolen by some farker from my HOUSE somemore...cb rite?hmm...nvm...i'll steal x3 of the value...that makes $600 worth of things...sian...yesterday nv really take good care of my dear...she nearly drown call mi i nv hear...wat a farked up stead i m...nvm...dear i promise wun let u out of my shadow anymore...cause yesterday abit jealous then got abit attitude ma...nvm...i'm okie ler...i luv u so so so so much...let our hand hold on 4ever...muahaha...muackx...woaini=p

wa...went thru alot alot

2007-03-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

hmm...went thru so much durin this time...no time to update my blog even...muahaha...hmm...almost everyday pei my dear wor...fun xia...tink she enjoy alot wit mi oso...cause i gif her my 100% luv...hmm...we quarreled quite badly 2-3 times but even stronger bond now...yeah!!!i love her...in sch make alot friends...alwin, fat sai ken, benjamin, lydia, daochun n weiliang...they brought mi life...but most of the effort come from my dear...hehe...woaini...hmm...k update another time...i love my DEAR!!!1314 promise...

hmm...long time ler

2007-03-09T23:11:00.000-08:00

wa...one longer than another de...so long nv update my blog...guess alot ppl waitin to see wor...esp my dear...haha...one month yesterday...watched follow law...not bad show ba...yea...laugh n laugh...muahaha...aft that go park watch abit of sunset wor...not bad...really enjoyed yesterday...but one thing...i dun like dear talk about them...hmm...nvm lar...but must change oso or else very easy quarrel in future...i love dear...so much...doin fine in sch...noe alwin n saiken...so fun...lydia n daochun...weiliang joker like mi...firdaus horny bastard...muahaha...so much fun in sch...but ya...must study well oso...i wan concentrate on my dear n studies...others i dun wan care ler...mauckx...we together forever...yea!!!woaini!!!=)

haiyo...sian

2007-02-18T18:13:00.000-08:00

sian...my com kana virus lately...reformated my com so yup...nv online few days ler...haha...i noe dear had been comin to my blog to view alot of times...haha..tricky...hmm...must b feelin disappointed le...cause so long nv update...aiya...new year somemore...hmm...tis few days not bad...jux chu xi very tirin onli...yesterday night go ganjie house gamble...win $10+...hai...cause i too greedy...or else is $30+ de...sian...hmm...nearly quarrel with dear the day b4...dear keep ask mi about mi n my x...then worse is i oso ask her...hehe...but now nth ler...we jux noe we lov each other alot...wun wanna leave each other...i love u dear...muahaha...i love u to bits!!!dear later comin my house bai nian...i goin to fetch her soon...hmm...sian...dunno later she can go my gan ma house ma...tink she my dear of luck...should b able to gif mi luck ba...muahaha...dear i love u...stages jumpin le wor...tink dear love it...muackx...kisses for dear...our promise*090207...HAPPY 9 days together...=p

haiyo

2007-02-14T21:16:00.000-08:00

went rp yesterday durin work...wa kao...forget come back punch out...cause meet dear ma...haha...then valentine day dear come my house celebrate...hmm...we were like slpin all the way...haha...although plain but we enjoyed it..nth to do if go outside...slept too long...no time go take neo print...hmpf...must rmb next time...haha..dear so happy yesterday...but keep lookin at mi daydream...dear we r so happy together hor...cause i very hard get angry de...jux easily get jealous onli...but dear...although this relationship we can enjoy..but we must oso study hard wor!!haha...noe u will read my blog...so yup...stages we maintian...slowly increase...MUAHAHA!!!love u...happy valentine...tink u will like tat present...muackx=p
rOy <3 yuanting muackx muackx muackx...ai ni 1314

hmm...dangerous wor

2007-02-13T15:31:00.000-08:00

wah...dear yesterday read thru my blog...i was really sort of disappointed yesterday...she thought i wanted to use her as a replacement to my x...wa...dear...told u ler...nvm...its a misunderstandin n everything cleared ler...hehe...now u believe mi le ba?i spend not the whole night...but stayed out quite late to do valentine day gift for u...muahaha...wo ai ni so much!!!u r my everyting...i love u the most most most most most!!!meet u later ba...i nid go bath n off to work ler...today last day=p

wah busy day...sweet one oso=X

2007-02-13T01:21:00.000-08:00

yeah...haha...job over yesterday dear come find mi...then wierd thing is dear ask for my phone wor...then she quietly kept it in her pocket...haha...tricky...hmm...think she scared i got other gals?no lar...i promised dear ler...u r now the onli one in my heart...i wun leave u no matter wat...hehe...dear came my house after tat...we can talk wor...reach the bus stop near my house...i held dear hand...then we walked past the road...dear dun mind a sweaty palm...yeah...nvm...clean hand...LOL...hmm...come my house dear adapt very very fast wor...haha...i sleep ler dear ownself noe...go use com ler...haha...hmm...talk to my maid somemore...think she wan talk then after that ask whether i got bring gals to this house b4...or else is ask her keep a lookout...haha...hmm...nvm...u will b the onli one...i told u le dear...dun worry...roy n yuanting 1314...dun worry...dear love to hug mi when i slpin...brush my hair...i really love this kind of love...so sweet...u pei mi much...but study oso i love u even more dear=p

yeah!!!

2007-02-11T14:16:00.000-08:00

everything came out the way i knew it would b...lol...kao...on the 9th of feb had both good n bad memories...firstly...i got an aggregate of 27...lol...can go poly but my eng n science D7...zz...only can go ite...but i choose retain...sian...haf to quit ntuc ler...but dun worry...i promised my gan ma,jie, gege and most importantly dear dear...that i will definitely study hard...wun let them down...dear oso havin o's this year...tink we both aim jc kk?hmm...must force mi study wor...
Next good thing...should haf guessed ba?hmm...mi n yuanting together ler...haha...tryin out our relationship..see if we can last...but aiya...sure will de!!!rite dear?haha...hmm...dear promise u i wun leave u...u promise mi oso ar...dun break our promise!!!haha...later go work then half way go back sch apply...later meet u then go my house kk dear?muackx...dear woaini!!090207

hmm...

2007-02-07T06:14:00.000-08:00

i'm quite down yesterday...dunno y...kao...i'm okie now...hehe...erm...think u r destinated to b with mi?haha...so qiao can see u on our way on bike to play basketball?hehe...slowly in everything no good de...can noe mi along the way...no prob...kao results comin out liao...scared xia...mayb retake ler...thik wun pass ba...MUST STUDY LE...i enjoyed this holiday...i wun repeat my mistakes again...i wan b with u...dun worry...we will last...haha...if u treat mi well...i oso will de..=p

haiz..

2007-02-06T00:23:00.000-08:00

relationships so lame...kao...or mayb not relationships...think prob lies with gals attitude which we guys dun understand ba...or mayb jux mi...prob mayb lies on mi 2...isit?wah lao...think i'm not the guy for most gals...OR ALL...hmm...so far think dun wan stead le...single think the best...haha...stead waste money waste time...but without one real sad...esp valentine comin...passby this valentine n my chalet without a stead is gonna b real sian...hmm...not usin to like show to ppl that i got stead...but for myself...i'm always in this own world of mine...so stupid...everytime so sad...cheerful at the outershell but u dunno mi inside out...hmm...nobody actually do...except john i think...know him so long nt for nth...haha...good bro i haf...now we together doin survey on ppl hu drink!!hmm...nice job...nice pay...i like this ba...cause can let mi n john haf time together...but very sian lei...those ques ar...wah lao...damn borin...skip here n there still nid about 5 mins...so i think i'll stay alone for the time being first...recover myself...stop myself from bleedin within for some time ba...=(

relationship like tat?

2007-02-04T16:12:00.000-08:00

isit cause i m ur first stead thats y u feel distant to mi?actaully i think to send gals back home at night esp is their duty lor...do u noe that i dun feel safe leetin u home by urself...even those stories that u made up sayin u r with ur friends till near ur house...i noe u say all that bcause u r afraid of mi...its actually wat most gals want...but some they can't even get it...lol...y u dun wan jux let it b natural?if its freedom u wan...then kk...i gif u...

nice ma?

2007-02-03T03:01:00.000-08:00

haha dear...today purposely ask u dun bring jacket...cause i wan u wear mine...more comfortable isn't it?hmm...help u put on jacket twice...hehe...feel like a lucky man...hmm...i love ya dear...hope we would get ur parents approval together...then no more worries...i love ya alot alot...u lei dear?haha...kk i jux woke up...dun noe how to type much...woaini...

hehe...tio sabo but i kinda love it=p

2007-02-02T16:03:00.000-08:00

hmm...new chapter of my life started again liao...haha...on the 1st of feb...haha...lucky hor?can together on the first day hor dear?hehe...muackx...dear...its kinda difficult for both of us to meet out at times...cause u noe lar...partly ur parents n cause both of us got work...i'm always more free lo...hehe...can go find u...but dear we can always pei each other at our workplace...think thats the reason y i nv change job...haha...hmm...so in love with u...valentine comin...hope we both haf time for it...mayb our first date oso...muahaha...fetch ya later dear...=p

few days back

2007-01-29T16:27:00.000-08:00

wa kao...so long nv update my block...kk here comes a whole load of events...i'm now single...broke up with regina...lols...thats not the main issure...the main issue is that we broke up on our first month aniversary...for wat i think lar...think she with mi is jux cause of work?thats real lame...everytime we r together...her those FRIENDS would b around oso...its not mi being bad...wilson say this oso...jaslin is like a dog...follow regina everywhr...everytime oso must follow.talk loads of bullshit oso...sian...lucky it was not too deep...i did sense something missin n i did withdraw most of my feelins...haha...aiya...drop the topic...wow...now crazy for daytona le...love driftin the car...so shiok...kk dun talk le....i nid to go...hehe...go punch in to work n go DAYTONA=p

hmm...

2007-01-05T01:31:00.000-08:00

dear...yesterday at sembawang borin hor?haha...cause there no thing to walk...sian...nvm...amk hub openin...we go there walk when it really opens...kk?i love u so so much...ppl may say relationships will onli b sweet in the beginnin...but i dun think so...so yup...forever in love with u....u noe wat i wan...initiative is not wat i nid to do...owe mi punishment clear liao...wah kao...nvm...u will get to owe more...haha...evil...laogong rOy <3 laopo r3g 1314...271206*our promise...HAPPY 9 DAYS TOGETHER!!!YEAH!!!

i LOVE u!!!

2007-01-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

dear u r so good...u find time to pei mi n lots...i noe u r free mostly but i really appreciate that u come all the way here to pei mi...i really miss ya so much this few days...tomorrow can go down find u le...yeah...so happy...u r my power to live well...u r my EVERYTHING...dunno wat in u attracted mi...oh ya...u r my type...haha...n u so cute...bloated cheeks...love to kiss u alot...haha...muackz...cya tomorrow...buaiix...happy 7 days!!!

YEAH!!!

2006-12-29T08:42:00.000-08:00

omg...today finally start work at ntuc amk hub...yeah...although the job abit borin but with wilson...crap alot...lame things keep talkin lar...n keep eat snake=p after that very tired...but cycle back home to change n rush down yishun sell ice cream...saw dear...she keep peep at mi...lol...haha...think i dunno ar...haha...i oso...LOL...today's work still hai hao...nv lose money...argh...earn $7.50...lol...haha...but nvm lar...dear was so shocked...i pull her then kiss her straight...she stunned...then after that she oso start kisssin alot ler...haha...yeah...dear look like rabbit...SO CUTE!!!=p

kao...the internet sux..

2006-12-27T22:58:00.000-08:00

yesterday mi n regina finally together le...yeah...over how much then i finally let her* go...n found regina...they look alike...but one thing...very different...regina so much more carin n lots of time to pei mi...haha...goin ntuc work soon...dunno will haf enough time to pei her ma...sob sob...sorry if i neglect u for awhile...for any time left in my daily schedule...i will pull it out for u...i promise...erm...very happy...271206...our day of hatch...newlife for both of us...love ya...ai si ni!!!=)

today so happy!!!=X

2006-12-25T09:20:00.000-08:00

today i went catch a movie...u noe with hu???ARGHHHH...cannot guess rite?with someone i love...haha...wah...more happy than goin with stars xia...shes so cute lar...i late somemore...sian...so sorry...but i reach there she still like blur blur see mi...her eyes...wah...i got attracted...haha...in movies she cold or wat oso dun wan tell mi...dun nid so keqi de lar...i m ready to gif u my everything...i try gif u my best...my love...my care...n i hope i will get urs too...u really look like my ex dun u?but dun worry...i nv put my feelins for her down in u...cause i dun wan u to read my past...i wan u to like start with mi a new relationship...AI SI NI LE...WO YAO NI!!!i wan u by my side always...we live kinda far...but i dun care lar...haha...our age...hmm...heck care oso...bcause i'm into u...all into u...i lent u my jacket...wanted to ask u for stead today...but alot lightbulbs...sian...jas dunno how to talk ar?kao...i cannot pull the string de lar...must she ownself go ask de...like mi...i ask u...haha...on the way back...my friend call mi...dunno kena wat taiji...thought they got prob...rush down...scared they fight lose...kao...MEN IN BLUE(police) already reach liao...so stupid...junior ar...control ur stupid thinkin lar...bring the chain for wat?kao...make urself look stupid...now nv hit ppl oso get charge i tell u...zz...fist is portable de ma...bring others 4 wat?ur reasons in court u think got use?change now or u will regret de...i dun bring weapon around...that time at thomson rmb?dun nid de lar...hai...hope u all nth happen ba...i wan see u guys...play around...anyway...i noe u didn't mean it that time...but dun let mi get a chance to play with ur profile too...haha...k lar...bros...u all takiare...i think over liao...my HAO PENG YOU benny he really good...he ask mi alot ques...i think i dun wan b gangster le lar...jux b myself...anyway got regina?i dun wan chup ler...goodbye AST n 18...i'm roy...not xiaorong or watever...cloud?lol...no more oso...i'm roy...muacks to regina=p

HOHOHO!!!MERRY X'MAS

2006-12-24T18:51:00.000-08:00

wow...a brand new day...jux woke up cause last night damn freakin tired...went countdown n got ps by quite alot of friends...sian...left mi yang n shawn..zz...its alright...i got eu by my side.Hey look...santa is very fair...he gives everyone a present...n for mi...he chose to gif mi u...regina...haha...lol...i think its really fate that i could meet u at bishan...get to noe u....now u workin under mi n lots...now gettin ready to bath n go out to catch a movie with ya...haha...lol...simply love u to bits n pieces...the ques now is do u?=p

i'm determined now...

2006-12-21T19:50:00.000-08:00

yesterday was the start of my job at esplanade...the COOLTEDDY ba...haha...so fun...i was not in the shop...the moment i reach the shop it was like sian...but i saw 'her'...wow...not bad lei=p...although its like she's a good gal...i m determined not to go too near to her...n luckily i was brought over to the concourse to do charity event=p...i do not want a gal to follow mi into the triads...i wan to b single...hmm...at least my life now quite lively...without u its like...wow..i'm able to breath=X...i'm like free...real free...those teddy bear it was like...so fun...cotton stuffed b mi...wear shirt for it...everything...yeah...so SHIOK!!!love this job...but one thing onli...the pay is low...but at least...my passion for it is there...n back to the topic again...isit 18siao or Always Standin Tall?=p

ask mi that ques so fast for wat?

2006-12-14T16:10:00.000-08:00

u nv even think whether u still love mi n u ask mi that silly ques?y must u hurt both of us that much?the way u treated mi...u dun even care about mi...i'm so silly to stand byur side always...let u treat mi for granted...i told u ler...theres a limit of wat i can do till the extent whr i cannot n onli stead can..i cannot do anything much as long u choose not to see mi...u say our character would crash...is that so?have u asked urself hu had b the one provokin mi to cause a quarrel?the prob dun lie in mi...my friends around mi should noe...i'm not easily provoked...n esp the one i love...or i care...its okie if ur decision turns out negative...i've set out a path that i wanna go...or mayb u should'nt haf came back to make mi so sad...i'm utterly dissapointed of ppl around mi...onli some ba...john bunch...they r always so fun to b with...no pressure...dun nid plan to defend myself...hai...hope u would find a good guy though...i'll no longer remain the one u wan mi to b...n if the path i chosen is into the dark one...i would nv let any gals come too close to mi...cause i dun wan to bring harm to them...n not b useful to them...haiz...i'm gone...realli gone soon...buaiix...everytime u make mi blog or write a diary then cry...my tears may not b visible to my friends but one thing thats for sure...i'm very very vulnerable...

u tryin to tell mi something?

2006-12-11T18:52:00.000-08:00

u sound as though alot things u haven tell mi...patience can lead to sucess but may oso mead to doom...i m really scared about ur decision...wat r u thinkin?aren't we happy this few days together?y not try out?u may b abit n onli abit childish but i love u this way...i didn't expect u to change anything about u...jux want u to b like tat...love mi n its enough...isit that hard?u know i love u...but u simply dun wan to recgonise the fact...the prob with him isit u could n't bear to leave him?jux simply three words...i wanna break...isit that hard?haiis...perhaps i nid more patience...or m i really not fated to get happiness?zzzzzzzzz:'(

wahaha

2006-12-09T02:02:00.000-08:00

hmm...ever since we were back with our feelings...we were happy everyday with each other's accompany...i really dun wan to live in despair like tat one year i waited so long 4 u...i onli wan to use my full heart n concentrate on lovin u...the journey on sendin u home...revive memories of last time when we were on the bus...but i can't really let u rest on my shoulder yet cause we r still not officially together...i really wanna hug u on the bus...protect u n everything...so afraid u would leave mi...i would not let u haf the slightest chance of leavin mi...cause i already bent my mind that u r my one n only now n ever...the pathway near ur block...u suddenly say when u walk home with him...no stars de...haha...of course u with mi then haf alot rite?cause i'm ur star in life...the brightest...n we r meant to b together to form a stary sky...REALLY LOVE U LOTS N LOTS...=X

u noe how much u weight in my heart?

2006-12-06T15:41:00.000-08:00

over all this time then i realise...we r meant to b together...lets put all past back at oour backs...i dun wan anymore quarrels between us...i dun wan to lose u...hope things at his side can b cleared off faster...i wan to b with u...forever u onli...imagine i was soo soo nervous before i see u...but everytime i see u...i will like hmm...easy to fit into ur atmosphere...can talk de lar...cause mayb we r not like last time...too immatured...now we jux settle down n start our once ever lastin love story...LETS GO!!!muackx...love ya CHERYL...wo ai ni...1314 promise from mi to u...whrs urs?lol

i'm nervous=X

2006-12-05T06:59:00.000-08:00

hai..i'm so nervous about tomorrow's arrival...i'll b meetin u to talk...will we patch?i dunno myself...hope u still love mi as much as last time...i dun wanna get hurt like that one year i waited for u...plz...i'm scared...but if we nv patch...i would stay single forever ler...no trust in ppl anymore...i dun wan to collaspe again...hai...comments plz

hais...do i still?

2006-12-04T19:02:00.000-08:00

do i still love her?i waited so long for today last time...actually thought of settling down on my single life...but now she say she has feelin for mi...if time were to move back few months...i think i would b damn happy...but now...everything has to start all over again...i think i still love u...or can i say ya...i love u still as much...if our probs were to b settled once n for all...i think we would b happy together...muackx...hope we will get back=p

i mad liao~~~

2006-12-01T09:34:00.000-08:00

i m thinkin of joinin gang liao...dunno y...mayb because i dun wan land yang into trouble next time ba...i noe yang my bro sure wun mind...but i mind...cause if i treat him as bro sure wun wan him land into this oso de ma...n btw...my responsibilities...shawn u should understand hor?tell u b4 rite?hai ya...dunno wat happen to mi oso...jux hope all this would b over soon lor...zz...

dunno wat to do

2006-11-28T09:31:00.000-08:00

i m not feelin good today...although i earned quite alot tonight...but after all...i m feelin pain...frm ur words...but i wan to hear the truth...no choice...its okie...i rather hear truthful words...i agar agar get wat u mean...n wat eunice say ba...thx...dun worry...i noe wat to do...remain myself rite?untill 'SHE' appears ba...i will change no matter wat...i m not as good as u think...u dunno mi that well...i can't b that good ain't it the truth?i can onli protect u whenever i can help till...theres a limit i afraid...to that i m not ur stead...i cannot protect u frm some things...i haf no reasons...zz...sadsad...away liao...my heart is on vacation=(

today tio prob for nth

2006-11-27T09:50:00.000-08:00

dunno wat happen today...shit there tastin e23...suddenly three ast ppl come point table there ask hu not happy..wah...yang steady...my bro...wah kao...stand up help mi settle...or else sure kana taiji liao...but i think its simple logic lar...today they whack mi...tomorrow they die...zz...y must waste time...misunderstandin y must cre8 trouble?i not those bo taiji find trouble de...so ya...lame oso...wat 4?i think liao...always ask yang help oso no use...join other ppl de ba...then i settle myself...dun nid waste time..zz...hope to find a 'HOUSE' soon ba...

wo bu kuai le

2006-11-20T15:56:00.000-08:00

nowadays...not really happy bax...dunno y...not cause onli relationships...nid work...then no more those fun times when we all play together without wastin time on workin...i dunno wat m i doin actually...i hate being alone...all i nid is someone to pei beside mi...a gal mayb=p...but now dun haf...cause i nid someone to care 4...oor my life is damn dull...haiix...nvm...up to fate for that gal to come ba...hehe...will de i think...comments plz=p

we r friends forever

2006-11-18T16:08:00.000-08:00

wa...yesterday work damn fun xia...lol...but tired...cause keep stand...hai...keep slackin...then manager keep kpkb...muahaha...by workin mayb i can stop thinkin of relationship probs ba...yeah...hate those childish ppl...especially the wat rudolf or wat...stupid xia...he think he so zai...wan come find mi...i ask him come AMK he nv...lol...so act...dun really like ppl talk alot de...police force ppl still so stupid send a threatening msg...hai...nvm...no wonder he is frm ---...NO OFFENCE to others...wilson ar...almost everyday we together liao...cause nth to do...then play around ba...not bad...both of us r lamers...so ya...crap n can b together easily...yo...went down orchard yesterday oso...my mei was like quite sian...cause we were all lookin bois stuff..i think 'HE' dun mind ba...hahahah...ya...kk gtg...comments plz

HOLIDAY IN A FEW DAYS TIME

2006-11-17T14:58:00.000-08:00

stress over the comin results...wah...scary o's...found out that i m damn sociable...muahaha...my sun nu both MIA...nv online...n i no time call them...sob...findin job...hai...actually quite sian oso...i already gave her up...i mean hope she will get more happiness from other guys ba...haha...i'm not used to being alone...nowadays so close with wilson...haha...he very tricky...GAN TIAO TA!!!TUI LEII ARRR!!!haha...the love i haf for u previously was onli tempo...so i give it up...anyway...i dun even noe how to take good care of u well...lol...nvm...when the time is ripe...i would find her...my one n onli in life=p

DESTINATED TO B SINGLE=X

2006-11-16T08:03:00.000-08:00

haha...single mayb oso good hor?sian...the gal that i like can tell she dun haf any feelins for mi oso...hai...its okie lar...anyway i think my feelings for her is jux tempo...can get over it de ba...its okie...angel plz come to mi..lol...gide mi the the gal i m supposed to b...lame...haha...bored...tomorrow over=o's end...mcq is easy...no prob...ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY...dun thnk too much...not fated to b together its okie...think single is best for mi...unless if the gal really comes...

i haf a target...its u

2006-11-05T07:22:00.000-08:00

u noe wat is my feelins nowadays?i haf a strong feelin for u...u noe it i think...but i wan a everlastin relationship...which means i wanna check if the feelins for u r long-term/tempo...therefore its okie...after o's ba...haha...meantime...good friends?hai...comments...i nid them...i love u...but u?i m quite stresssed nowadays...o's pressure alot...nid u by my side...n i mean really by my side=p

haha...happy family

2006-10-31T14:27:00.000-08:00

this few days..i had been goin down to mac to studi...noe alot new ppl...or not say noe lar...get closer to alot ppl...erm first...shina...become my xiao mei...haha...S.Lee family liao...hai...shes so cute=p other than that...of course not to forget my two gan sun nus=p...they r relatively naughty...haha...esp like to copE ahpek food...hai...haha...but nvm lar...they wan something to bite ma...lol...itchy mouth ba...then they sometimes siao siao de lor...but the thing is i can at least study when with them...i dun think about u liao...thats a real real good thing...aim for a btter one...thats my goal in life...yeah...gogo=p

i m a goner

2006-10-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

everything is gone now...u i already forget...n my target is not within my reach le...omg...i m gonna let go liao...actually no gals nvm de ma...i got my mei,nuer n my laopo...haha...ty u ppl...bros got two...john n peng...u two ty even more...ty...ADVICES PLZ!!

my feelins gettin wierd...i dun sense anything...

2006-08-17T23:23:00.001-07:00

how?i'm startin to feel nth...i sense that my life is miserable...no ppl by my side...friends mayb important...but they r jux for awhile...sometimes hot sometimes cold...i once dreamt that i was with a person hu luv mi n i luv her...for once i thought it was u...but u dun wan even to b with mi...y?i dun get it...8 months when we were together won't it even itch abit in ur heart?wat reasons u haf?i hope everything would b seen with ur eyes...how much i lost bcause of u...but anyway thx to those beside mi when i'm feelin down...my new club...haha...pontan club...n my friends...my nuer...my meis...n of course...my LAOPO!!!haha...huggs..gif mi advice if u all can...ty

mY b3loved 'laopo'

2006-08-09T15:21:00.000-07:00

hai...my BBday party was crushed cause of pskias...sian diao...hai si john u all on...steady...thx..haha...sebes n shawn thx 2...those farkin cbs...u noe hu u all r...watch out...i will haf my revenge...quite sad...but lucky 'laopo' u encouraged mi...ur words pulled my heart up to my joyous point...thx gal...luv ya...haha...cya next time...

u mAde aLl thIs..

2006-06-13T08:36:00.000-07:00

i admit i used to b a play boy...not as in got qualities...but those hu would not stop lookin at gals...but now...after u left mi n after this long period....i felt that this type of mi no longer exist...cause of u ba....u made this chance in mi...thx lots gal...though u say we can't b together anymore...i still hope the best for u...i'm not those cheerful type...if u noe mi btter...outer shell i mayb...but if u noe mi more into my heart...u noe i'm not...nvm...no point sayin this to u all...haha...i noe there would b someone hu would come for mi a day...death guards...will that b u?zz`

i wUn crY cAuse of u lE...i'M stRonG=X

2006-06-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

I'm beggining to feel numb....perhaps the decision of not returning to mi is write...although i really luv u lots n lots...i can sense u did not lose any bit of feelings for mi...jux tat u scared bein hurt again...u dun find mi trustworthy...its okie gal...i'm alright...u takiare lots...u guys can scold mi stupid...but i can sense i'm not...especially u weipeng...haha...friens...plz gif mi comments...lots...thx..

aI nI tAi dUo dUi mA?

2005-11-14T22:13:00.000-08:00

everything started almost one year ago...things were jux like tiny ants...totally nothing to mi...hecks...but at this point...a gal jux came out of nowhere...haha~lame...thought that we will b forever together...even ppl say we look compatiable...but things changed over after a few months...y we suddenly like slack over this relationship?did not really care for each another...break up thrice...4?somebody might say bcause tis is a part of a relationship...but i dun think so...i did not wan this break truthfully...my heart is broken into tiny bits...really tiny bits...nobody helped mi at a time like this...everybody's life seems so perfect except mine...y?i had no time to explain my reasons n actions to u...u jux left mi like a gush of wind...without even tellin mi the reason...i noe i m in the wrong but u should remember i told u some things b4...i really hope we could get back the way we used to b at the start of the relationship...not like this...dunno is friend or jux strangers...msg always nv reply...when will then u start to grow n think properly?i dun noe whether should say this but if u really wanna noe wat i wanna say...call mi lol...jux remember this...if u care that is...nobody can heal mi except u...if we were to b 2gether again...dun ever leave mi+leavin mi at an exam period...stop the blog here...=(